I seriously cant wait to get back to RI. I need to clear my head and rethink shit. I appreciate the people who helped me to get to KY in the first place. There were really good  intentions there, but it just didnt work out. And for that I thank you.

But when I get back Im just going to start over. A completely clean slate. Im going to get a job, and probably go to school - im thinking American sign language courses.

Then after that Im gunna get BUFF! HAHA Probably boxing classes.

And most importantly Im just going to live. Im wasting precious life here. I was talking to my friends and were going to go party it up in VEGAS for the ‘testers rejection meetup’ LMFAO! making the best of things - oh well I met some kick ass people so Im not complaining!

But honestly, Im ready to sell all of my stuff for a flight back home - because i cant take the pressure of NOT BEING MYSELF. I feel like a fucking zombie. Everyone in Kentucky are all drones with zero personality and no interest in REALLY LIVING. Seriously, Im wore out. I cant stand being looked at as If I have 3 heads.

On top of that, theres a complete lack of multi-cultures here.

BLACK PEOPLE = population 2 (including me)

Its sad.

Theres defiantly alot MORE reasons to why im planning on packing up, but Ill leave it at that. Im ready to see my family. and load up all my friends in my car while blasting system of a down at 2 am down the street. Just like old times.

I still plan on moving to california. But Im tried of waiting in kEnTuCkY. I also havent heard anything from the tester contest - so who knows their decision could change everything..but as for right now..PEACE REDNECK VILLE! Its been fun (not really)

But I havent given up yet. Voting on the website was to give ONE contestant a garunteed spot on the show. Which means they still need 10 lucky gamers. Hopefully Ill be one of the ten selected to appear on season 2.

And if that happens…hang on tight contestants, your in for one hell of a ride.

I would like to point out one thing. During this entire online contest, I havent gotten ONE piece of negative feedback, until today. And it actually made me giggle.

It said:   “you just came on here to promote your modeling”

LOL to the person whom so nobally said this, let me school you on a few things.

I have never…and I repeat NEVER been PAID for ANY of my modeling work. I do it out of pure enjoyment and love for making ART.

And if you knew me, you would also know that Im all about expanding, and advancing. Do you seriously think I want to model the rest of my life? Your sadly mistaken my friend LOL. Staying in one spot is for the unmotivated and the content. Im neither of those and I plan to continue driving towards my goal until I find something that I can be happy with..

But oh, not for nothing - it would be absolutely RIDICULOUS to insinuate that certain people only want to get on the show for publicity….umm..HELLO! Everyone wants to get on the show for publicity! If that wasnt the case, go to playstaion.com and fill out an application - totally bypass filming and go work for them.

…….I swear, the nerve and stupidity of some people.

wish me luck!

So today I created my own avatar on the scott pilgrim movie site. Its pretty cool, yah like? I cannot wait for this fricken movie to come out..its going to be EPIC!!!!! I actually didnt know it was based on a coming book, which is pretty rad.

We’ll have our violence, and play it too! http://bit.ly/bAIn0P

http://casting.thetester.com/gothixmodel

If you’ve registered in the past, login and vote again! (you can do it daily)

Thanks soooooooo much! If I make it on the show…COOKIES FOR EVERYONE! lolz (ps. the above photo was taken via my dailybooth account..follow meeeeeee!! )

check out some that i already did:

http://tinyurl.com/3634svn

http://www.scribbls.com/users/gothixmodel-2013

(dude on the right…YOUR DOING IT WRONG!!!!)